Stressed Out
This morning I had a panic attack. I say had but I really should say having as I am still fighting it off. It’s better but I still feel weakness in my arm and I can feel the adreniline is still coursing through my veins. My mind is racing as is my heart. Ahh, panic attacks.
I took off from work today because I thought Jason had off from work and since we haven’t spent a whole day together in God knows how long, it would be nice to do so. Unfortunately, Jason did not have off today so now I am home alone watching some random Martin Sheen movie from the 80s. In it, a young woman had a heart attack and I have some arm weakness from exercising so it set off one of the worst panic attacks I ahve had in a couple of years. I have been doing pretty well with them but I guess the stress of moving, getting married and trying to change my career has finally caught up with me. Those are a lot of life stressors at once. Just when I thought I had a handle on panic, it comes back to bite me in the ass.
Dawn (webmiztris) Says:
lol, now I’m NOT laughing at you, but I do that too. every time I get an arm or leg pain I think, OMG, this is it! I’m having a heart attack! Then it goes away and I’m left feeling stupid.
laura Says:
panic rearing it’s ugly, ugly head. gotta love it. but you know it’s for a reason–moving, starting over, change–you got some big stressors there, me friend. just know that panic means you think too much and that’s good. you’re imaginative and that’s a gift. yes, you may have panic attacks, but if you didn’t, that would mean you weren’t deep and insightful.